All in a day

Well I have been building up to this year my whole life.  The year that I get finally get to the bottom of my binge eating disorder and achieve the God-given body I was gifted.  I am turning 30 in eight months.  I, like many, have had a slew of experiences and I consider myself a late bloomer joining the adult world.  I finally feel as though I am slipping into my place in this world and can come into alignment with what I was meant to be.  I want to point out that a major part of my journey includes http://www.shrinkyourself.com/ program.  Before I started this 52lbs Weight Loss Journey I lost 10lbs by doing this program for just three weeks.  I am finally get to the core emotions and have a tool (The Hunger Coach) to help me get through my obsessions and compulsions to binge.  It hasn't been perfect but it has been a 10 pound loss and that is progress, which is all I really need to reach my goal. Progress, not perfection.  I am in week four of my Shrink Yourself program and will continue it on a weekly basis.  I am determined to let go of these chains that keep me trapped in a body that I know for a fact is not mine.  I love to run, I love to move, I love to dance... this is not the body that was meant to be.  I will find it though.

Can we say... REALLY? I have taken off out of the gates and already have overeated. Yesterday was a diffiuclt day.... emotions endlessly.... I managed to avoid overeating throughout the day by taking a hot bath, allowing myself to cry and listening to music. But then at night (the worst time) I bought cereal (my fav) and ate about 3/4 of the whole box. Yuck! I can honestly say that writing this embarrasses me enough to perhaps think twic next time! That being sadit his day is a "Bounce Back" day. I need to just pick up and keep going, how else would I get there? I have already popped in the gym this morning to do a few things for my program coming up... just a way to get my head in the game. Tomorrow start the "Join My Journey" challenge at work. That is when my weight loss, inch loss and gym attendence is tracked for all of the members to see and get inspired. I am not working out today... and that is okay. Its a minimum of three days a week. But I will keep on top of my food today. Lets all do well today, just the very best we can, one step closer to our goal.

Get Ready ! Get Set! Go!!!!!!!!!

This is my place, my very special place to share and explore my journey of overcoming obesity.  I have struggled with obesity my entire life.  I have struggled with other issues as well, but I am healthy in all of those areas now.  I do no abuse my body in any way... any way except eating way too much food!  I have a layer of fat that surrounds my body that symbolizes past traumas, current fears and future limitations.  I want to break this cycle.  I am determined to take the next 8 months (September 1, 2011- April 26th, 2011) to lose 52lbs and get re-certified as a Fitness Leader at the gym ( www.ladiesonlyfitness.ca) that I work at.  I am going to share not only the logistics of how I will do this, but also what tools and steps I take to attack the true problem: my emotional binge eating disorder.  I will not use any prescription or over-the-counter weight loss medications.  I will not get a lap belt or have gastric by-pass surgery.  I will do it through changing my habits, exercising and eating healthy based on the Canada Food Guide.  I am a 29 year old pre-med student, mother of 2 beautiful girls and this is my journey!